Life is a group of parameters, variables in an equation. The most important equation explains the relation between different members of the family. Between the parents and their children. Their is a factor which I consider very important. A line...the determiner of right and wrong. Or maybe between what is appropriate and what is not. In many families conflicts happen, between the point of view of the parent and that of the child. Some parents see certain thing as inappropriate without considering that it is not wrong, and vice versa, sometimes opposing the natural insight of the child. It really hurts...
It hurts more when the child see the parent enrolls in what was refused before, or even enthusiastic about it. While, ironically, the child see it in a neutral way. When a child wants something, the timing is important, very important. When the margin of time is over, this desire or natural insight is no longer strong like before, no longer wanted like before. It loses its taste, its meaning, loses it value and fun. It even increases the hurt,especially when the parent is thinking to do that action towards himself and raises the always unspoken question...why?
A child in this moment is confused, experiencing a deteriorated image of freedom and of the outside world. He forms a picture in his mind that who has the power can do anything, no matter what others say or think of. He believes in the phrase: "Who cares", he has the power and nothing really matters if he is still in the controlling side.
Many things can be lost as a side-effect, important things. Any decision done this way by the parent against the right vision of their children at the time of conflict can waste a talent, waste a value, waste something which could have made others' lives better. Parents do not normally realize that anything they do, ANYTHING, is like a butterfly effect. Major things always happen from minor things. Tornados can happen when a butterfly flies in the air, just a little colorful butterfly roaming around the lighted bulb while you are enjoying its beauty. This beauty can form a powerful tornado with all its damage to others' lives.
Just give them the chance to live, to create, to love, no to hesitate. Give them the chance to feel, to understgand, to fly with their minds in their very special atmosphere of imagination, the kind of imagination you lost long ago. Give them the chance to do it their way, they have a great chance to understand their surroundings better than you, you didn't live their childhood, you maybe didn't have their experience as they don't have yours. They can be different, and you will never know if this difference is in the right way or the wrong way, or even if it was appropriate or not.
Just give them the chance...
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
H Daboor | Mody Rap | Sociopolitical Rap
Sunday, August 10, 2008
About important people who were dead recently
The graveyard is filled with important men, who couldn't be spared, but were in the end...
Friday, August 08, 2008
Free thoughts
Every human relation, every human act, every human thought has its own reference. A human reference. This human reference can be noble or not. Can be justified to be over religion and ethics. At the moment of doing a certain life/death act you don't think that this act is right or wrong, you just do it with a big to-hell to the whole world.
We always complain about people, what people will say, what way they will look at you. Really...what's the use? Do they feed you? Usually not. So? People will always talk and will never stop. Why would you surrender?
Sometimes this is done internally. When a certain person is afraid that he is wrong though he is not. Being ashamed when there is no need to. Self fear, self censorship, leading to self destruction. Be it totally or just in one's soul. When you can't face yourself and retreat away with no excuse, with no warning, with no month notice. You just go away, leaving your soul away, surrendering everything which had some meaning, some value, some memory, some life.
I hate this way of letting away things with no known reasons, I feel confusion for a long time before I try (usually failing) to overcome this confusion. Analyzing and reanalyzing it again for so so long. I really want to tell myself: "It is over you idiot, don't waste your time and nerves on it. Any ended thing can never be the same again as it was and enjoy the moment as it is and never think about it when it is gone". But I just can't. I don't have the strength. I just keep myself absent from the world acting the victim blaming the whole world for my so-called misery, though in my current life I must feel content.
I don't waste my time. I have a life, a job, good cooperative work team, a perfect sister... What do I want more?
Maybe I want annoying people/relatives to leave me alone and know how destroying they are to me, again we go to the point of strength of facing. Yes, this is what I want...
The force to face anyone in the face and tell them they are annoying. And I'm glad that I'm succeeding in that.
P.S. Rediscovering Celine Dion, love the A New Day Has Come album :)
We always complain about people, what people will say, what way they will look at you. Really...what's the use? Do they feed you? Usually not. So? People will always talk and will never stop. Why would you surrender?
Sometimes this is done internally. When a certain person is afraid that he is wrong though he is not. Being ashamed when there is no need to. Self fear, self censorship, leading to self destruction. Be it totally or just in one's soul. When you can't face yourself and retreat away with no excuse, with no warning, with no month notice. You just go away, leaving your soul away, surrendering everything which had some meaning, some value, some memory, some life.
I hate this way of letting away things with no known reasons, I feel confusion for a long time before I try (usually failing) to overcome this confusion. Analyzing and reanalyzing it again for so so long. I really want to tell myself: "It is over you idiot, don't waste your time and nerves on it. Any ended thing can never be the same again as it was and enjoy the moment as it is and never think about it when it is gone". But I just can't. I don't have the strength. I just keep myself absent from the world acting the victim blaming the whole world for my so-called misery, though in my current life I must feel content.
I don't waste my time. I have a life, a job, good cooperative work team, a perfect sister... What do I want more?
Maybe I want annoying people/relatives to leave me alone and know how destroying they are to me, again we go to the point of strength of facing. Yes, this is what I want...
The force to face anyone in the face and tell them they are annoying. And I'm glad that I'm succeeding in that.
P.S. Rediscovering Celine Dion, love the A New Day Has Come album :)
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Book Review: Utopia - Ahmed Khaled Tawfik
يوتوبيا by أحمد خالد توفيقMy review
rating: 1 of 5 stars
Well I think the author is presenting the world as a result of extreme neo-liberalization of World Economy, the duality of poor and rich. And to present the unity of the two parts from the perspective of sex, drugs and violence (though for different reasons).
Not so bad for a pessimistic point of view, but personally I don't agree with the author.
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Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Discovered that
Everyone must have the courage of the surgeon when he begin the first cut of the operation. Everything just follows naturally after the cut, while you might think a million times afraid of the first moment. Falling in million traps of uncertainty...
When you think of something, go for it, be it right or wrong, mistake or not, you will realize and have the experience, maybe you can give you valuable experience in a place like this...
When you think of something, go for it, be it right or wrong, mistake or not, you will realize and have the experience, maybe you can give you valuable experience in a place like this...
Friday, June 06, 2008
Give or Leave
This is how I see it. I was always the one who put the fuel. I tend to supply fuel in great quantities and for a very long time with no equivalent refund from the other side. I ended up needing more refund which was not possible for reasons either I don't know, or I don't want to know about. No equation can be stable in this situation and pressure increase to break the whole thing up. And it broke.
Though I still long for that beginning...
Though I still long for that beginning...
Thursday, May 29, 2008
I....feel....
Day after day, love turns grey
Like the skin of a dying man
Night after night, we pretend it's all right
But I have grown older
and you have grown colder
and nothing is very much fun any more.
And I can feel
One of my turns coming on.
I feel
Cold as razor blade
Tight as a tourniquet
Dry as a funeral drum,
Like the skin of a dying man
Night after night, we pretend it's all right
But I have grown older
and you have grown colder
and nothing is very much fun any more.
And I can feel
One of my turns coming on.
I feel
Cold as razor blade
Tight as a tourniquet
Dry as a funeral drum,
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Rate your Life
| This Is My Life, Rated | |
| Life: |  6.5 |
| Mind: |  7.5 |
| Body: |  5.7 |
| Spirit: | 6.7 |
| Friends/Family: |  4.3 |
| Love: |  2.9 |
| Finance: | 6.1 |
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